... or nothing at all ~Helen Kellar
Happy 2012 ya’ll! I suppose since I wrote a reflection and a list of goals last year that would be appropriate this year too. So here goes…
2011 was easily the hardest year of my life, though now I can say without a doubt that I am infinitely stronger than I imagined I would be at this point in my life. I did well on the hardest and most important exam of my life. I was forced to confront suicide on more than one occasion. I lost the love of my life, my dog Abby. I moved from the suburbs to downtown Chicago. I made new friendships that I cherish more than words can describe and grew closer to those people who already had a special place in my heart. I’m learning that I can’t change other people or their actions, only that I can change how I react to them. I started seeing patients on a daily basis, and they have taught me infinitely more about medicine, life, and myself than I could’ve ever imagined. My Grandma Willie followed her dream and moved to FL; though I miss her like crazy, I admire her drive and “I can do anything” attitude. And that’s only the beginning of the whirlwind I somehow managed to come out standing through…
In 2012, I’m just simply challenging myself to take more risks- in love, my career, education, and life in general. In an honest admission, I have been perhaps a little too cautious in attempt to protect myself in recent years. It’s hard to believe that at this time next year, I’ll anxiously be awaiting the fate of my career and course of my life. The choices I make this year are so critical to my journey of becoming who I am supposed to be. May I act on every opportunity and live this life in Chicago to it's fullest! Right now, I can humbly say I’m a little lost. I’m praying for guidance, direction, and wisdom every day. And boy, do I hope I start to hear God’s voice soon!
With all that being said, here’s my list:
-take more chances
-follow my heart and intuition, always
-study a lot and be a good worker
-bond more with Elle
-seek knowledge outside of the medical world- wines, astronomy, history, culture
-travel as much as possible
-pray and talk to God as often as possible
-do well on the second steps of the boards
-make plenty of time for girlfriends
-make a residency choice, location choice, and work hard to match there
On NYE, I partied with practical strangers… talk about starting the year by taking a chance! It was really amazing how well the night turned out. In fact, it was easily the most fun I have ever had celebrating a new year. The song I’m posting below is a dedication to a person I met that night, who will forever have a special place in my heart.
I still miss my Abby every minute of every day. I visited her grave a couple times over break, and boy was that hard!
Thank you allowing me to experience real unconditional love; I love you forever baby girl. <3