Monday, December 12, 2011

Thursday, December 8, 2011

This is Love

I miss her so much more than words can say.

Corneal arcus

I saw a patient who had this on my ENT rotation, and I wondered what it was. I asked my preceptor, but he didn't know. Now that I've figured it out, I thought I'd share. It's called corneal arcus and is associated with dyslipidemia and atherosclerosis.

Monday, December 5, 2011

God, I miss her :(

I Only Wanted You

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.

I'll meet you there. Love you Abby <3

Blue Jeans

New artist my cousin shared with me, Lana Del Rey... He knows me so well it's freaky. Cool style and really cool song. I want this album.

Note: I'm throwing this in there, so that my blog isn't entirely depressing.

My little girl, the love of my life

Well, it turns out GERD wasn't Abby's problem at all. Renal failure was. I've been so devastated. It's hard for me to write about it now because words can't even begin to describe how sad I am or how sad Elle is. So, for now I just want to share a few of my favorite things people said to me about her, about loss, about love... (Mind you, these are just a few. I received so many nice comments and memories.)

"Where we are going is so much better than here."- Grandpa Bogie

"Abby was an agility star! She loved the sport, but not as much as she loves you. She loved working for you and cared about you. I remember Liz Ulen telling you it was as if she was looking after you when you guys would run through a course. I absolutely believe that. She was a great dog with a big heart! I'll never forget how she always ran to greet me and Molly every Thursday night with her big smile and waggin tail. She was more than just a dog. Abby will always have a piece of my heart"- Margaret

"But rest assured, that curly tail is now cheerfully wagging all over doggy heaven!" -Gosha

"Abby was a great dog and companion. I remember when I had to dog sit one time when you were away. I thought it was going to be tough to take care of a dog not having any experience but Abby was a complete joy! It was like she was my best friend for the night just chillin and watching TV. She never begged, cried or made any mess at all. In fact she was better then a lot of my human friends :)" -JC

"When we create bonds of love like that, not even death can break them" -Bret

I'm so incredibly grateful for the 7.5yrs I had with my baby. I'll miss her every day. Her life was just too short. Thanks so much to my family and friends for the messages, food, flowers, phone calls, and photos. I'm blessed even in saddest time of my life.